DREAMS AND HEARTACHE!

I must say its been awhile! Many of you know how much I have wanted to be a firefighter since I was very little.. Its always been my dream.. For awhile I gave up on that dream due to the economy.. Well Im here to say Im not giving up on that dream any longer! Im going back to school and I will succeed! I will not stop until I reach the top.. but to change the subject a wee bit..

There is something else on my mind, Something very serious that must be addressed... Im taking a huge leap with this one.. Its about the recent suicides of the 4 gay boys.. My heart goes out to all of their family and friends.. It kills me to know that I was there at one point in time.. Knowing you are different at a very young age, being raised in a religious family, youngest of 7 and having feelings so deeply unexplainable was really hard for me and at times it still is.. I know killing myself isn't the right thing to do. Because in the midst of it all, I know my family loves me. I have lost friends over "coming out of the closet" and I know people dont look at me the same.. and it has taken me along time to get over those losses and changes but you gotta remember you have a beautiful life to live and keep moving forward. I know who I am now. I am happy. I love all, for God IS love!

If you disagree with my way of thinking that is ok.. I still love you. And you need to know Im not trying to change you so please dont try to change me. I love you the way you are.

For those who are having a hard time and are still "in the closet" just know you ARE NOT alone! As my beauitful Auntie Lizzy J always tells me, " YOU ARE AN EAGLE BY DAMN!"

FLY HIGH AND DONT LET ANYONE BRING YOU DOWN!

LOVE IS THE MOVEMENT!